Search For Self

I moved in with nothing, just walls so bare,

No couch, no bed — only my pole stood there.

From emptiness grew our laughter and cheer,

Six long years of memories made right here.

We threw birthday parties, daughter-mom style,

Sleepovers and girl nights that stretched a mile.

This tiny one-bedroom, though humble, small,

Held dreams and secrets, it sheltered us all.

I brought my son home — oh, that sacred day,

Though worry and fear often led me astray.

Nights I paced floors when he didn’t come back,

Prayers on my lips, my faith under attack.

The fights at the school, the bruises, the pain,

Court cases repeating like thunder and rain.

Yet Sunday dinners, each child had a seat,

With love on the table, our circle complete.

I was erratic — a wildfire bright,

A mother’s love blazing through the dark night.

I cried through Livehouse, my tears like a song,

You kept me steady when nights felt so long.

THE ROYAL EMPIRE — my family true,

Held me together, like strong, faithful glue.

You watched my journey, stood close if I’d fall,

I honor your presence, your love through it all.

Now we are leaving, this chapter must close,

We’ll take the bright petals, leave thorns of the rose.

No more the worry, the courts, or the fight,

We step to the future with love as our light.

So goodbye, apartment, your duty is done,

You birthed us in struggle, we rise with the sun.

With daughter, with son, with family near,

We carry the love — but leave behind fear.